may & june
Monday, June 4th, 2007are the favorite and hate survey querries.
Among the questions that
frequently pops up in these surveys were the favorite month of the year. My favorite month? that’s pretty easy, October is a hands down fave,since
it is my birth month and December too for obvious reasons. But how about my least
favorites. Pretty tough huh…
Honestly when this was among the questions, i
remember skipping it simply because I don’t have a least fave month that I can think
of…But if this hate survey question pops up again, I know now what’s the
answer. I would certainly put in May and June.
Since 2002 May and June have become the most stressful months that I’ve
gone through the past 5 years. I have gone through several changes and ironically most of the unfortunate and unexpected events in my life would come at this times of the year. This year is no different. Just last month we received the inevitable
news —our team will be disbanded and the whole teams in our company will be reorganized for a whole lot of reasons. Whatever the reason is, it all boils
down to one thing, it’s another burden that I have to go through. Reorganization
means bidding goodbye to all the friends that I’ve made and the oh-so-close
relationship that we’ve created as Boston Red Sox, will have to end.
I may be hiding it, I may be suppressing the feeling, but the truth is, I really feel so low now that I
have to take another step in my life as a PSR in our company. It’s the same
feeling that I felt when I first entered the radio industry June of 2002. I
made friends, some bonds and a whole lot of lovin’.
By May 2004, with the
financial problems that the first radio station I’ve worked with at that
time, I have to to transfer to another station and take on another challenge. By
June of that year I was working with different people and with a different
company. some adjustments were made and I have to dwell with two factions at
that. I learned to jived with the two groups and the conflict has slowed down, or so we
thought.
Last year, May 2007 the shocking news came, all of us, except for a
chosen few, were given working papers and has to leave the company forever. It
was such a painful break up because, the other party- whom I’ve considered to
be close to me, thought that I was part of the conniving forces that made the
sudden rigodon of events in the company take off. It was painful because my
heart was with them and they never seemed to believe.
A lot of things have unfold during May and June and I still don’t know why it still happens. I guess its a thing that I have to accept for now. Time to move and learn from all this sudden changes.
