Self Worth
I just learned today that my good friend Rod, was automatically nominated to handle a team. He is now a Team Lea d and he got what he just wanted long time ago. I feel so proud and I have never doubted - that he’ll get the post, the moment he decided to forget about QA and apply for the said position.
He is such a brilliant person and he deserve to be there. Well, there were three names mentioned who will make a giant leap in their careers come Monday, but I just think that one of them don’t really deserve the post. (But that’s another story though).
I hope I can be like Rod. He went through a slowly but surely route. He waited, worked his way up there. He did not earn that post because he made friends with this big person. He was not offered to a post just because of the relationships he created. More than anything else, he got his spot, because he worked his way up.
Looking within, evaluating my journey for the past few months. I am not sure though, if I really deserve my post. Agents call me "Sir Ely", but do I really live up to the title. Well I’m not saying that I am really that "huge" in our company, but hey!, they consider me an "Officer", therefore, I am a step higher than our agents.
Looking back in my personal history, I have won so many battles, because of well-thought strategies and well-orchestrated presentations. I can’t really say, that I’ve worked so hard to get where I am now. All I can remember was, I was just doing my thing - in fact - most of the time, I’ve been to complacent and timid. I couldn’t remember a single time that I was so exhausted and so tired because I was pushing so hard to be on top.
Maybe that’s one of the reasons why, I cannot really feel the bittersweet feeling of getting a higher position, getting an increase or being recognized as somebody. I just can’t say that I have gone through what Rod has gone through nowadays….I’m so happy for him really…and it makes me feel so guilty!
Maybe, I have to really really work hard from now on, to really be worthy of what I have now.
July 18th, 2008 at 5:35 pm
I agree. I know him! He was my team mate. I felt bad coz iL lose a good colleague, but… it’s a career growth. I am happy for Rod still.
Gosh! I was there prior to his exit.
July 25th, 2008 at 6:03 am
hey eli!
of course, you deserve your position. there are many routes to success and the one you chose is one that only the ones with brains can take. and there are only a few of you… uhm, (us?) who have that option. be happy and contented with what you’ve reached so far. and i say so far because i’m sure you have a long way to go. and when we reach the pinnacle of our own successes, let us celebrate the bitter sweet taste of success.
FYI, i’m not celebrating yet. Maybe in 2 years time.
July 30th, 2008 at 1:46 am
Hoy Eli,
Magtigil ka nga! hehehe